If you knew for a fact that god existed would it change you?

Do you believe that knowledge is power? Do you believe that just knowing god exists will prove you to him? It says he is takeing in knowledge of man. As perfect as you might be even to the extent of Jesus would you so willingly offer your child or children to those less perfect then yourself to see how they would treat them? personally i am terrified to give children to this existence. Everyone around me is so stupid i have taken delight in complete fools over those that are wise in their own eyes. Two things have changed about me once god proved to me he was more then a coincidence my interest in life and my interest in death. Iam completely blah every human is supernaturaly stupid to me and my very heart ego super ego and id has become supernatural. 2 of the Mexican drug cartel leaders will be disastablished next year